himynameisjireh

I’ve Been..

Hey, I missed all of you!
Since I’m early for school, it’s pouring outside,
why not fill you in on my dreadful boring life right? :)

I’ve decided to leave radio yesterday.
I know; You’ve worked so hard for it,
finally got it, and now I’m letting it go, why Jireh?
The reasons? Ask me privately if you want to know. :)
(Actually typed an entire paragraph on it) 

Modeling; NIL, kosong, meiyou, zilch.

The 3 week break was a great getaway for me. 
Went to Bintan for Church Camp.
The beach, the sun, the sea, was simply amazing.
The best thing about it? It’s literally right at your doorstep. 
Can’t wait for a return trip!

Headed down to Malaysia for Paintball as well last weekend.
It was great fun and definitely hurts like a bitch. 
Who’s up for round 2?

I’ve started writing a song as well,
but it’s not progressing!
To all talented people, if you would like to help an amateur,
please drop me a message! :)
Any help I can get would be great. Lyrics, Melody, Beats etc!
Let me know if you want to hear it, live show on Skype! Free leh! 

Can’t think of anything else now. Will continue later.
Gosh, my writing’s shit.

Love,
Jireh 

Vents

I’ve made so many mistakes, so many wrong choices in my life.

I’m getting so frustrated and angry with myself.

Yet I still hear His voice telling me He loves me.
What did I do to deserve His mercy? 

I keep slipping back into my past, dwelling in selfish indulgence. 
I’m so sick of it; so sick of myself.
Aren’t you? 

I’m disgusted.

Still Alive but I’m Barely Breathing!

Hi everybody!

It has been awhile since my last entry. And I’m so sorry that I left it hanging all so depressing. Thank you all for your condolences during that period.

Well, it’s back to school. My third week in fact.
Got my deejaying/radio opportunity started; been doing it every wednesday during the lunch hour. However, they are requesting for another interview this coming week. So.. my spot may just be jeopardized.

Modeling, on the other hand, has not been in the radar as of yet.
As of last week, I think I’ve just lost my opportunity for that project mentioned in my earlier posts. Have yet to hear any news from the team, nor the person in charge; since the other time I’ve mentioned about her. Besides, I’ve recently checked out the competition and well.. let’s just say I’m on the other end of the spectrum. No, I’m just being honest with myself.

I think I’ve grown too complacent and ignorant in this sudden surge of the motion. It came so quickly. Well, it was fun while it lasted. Really appreciated all of your constant support and encouragement. I wouldn’t even spared a thought for all these things if it weren’t for you guys. So thank you.

As of now, I believe that God sees it all and He definitely knows what’s best for me. It’ll for sure keep me grounded and focused on Him. And that hopefully with the opportunities I’ve been given, I may be able to glorify Him with it.

And of course, not mentioning the interview I’ve got with The Script. It was amazing! Had the chance to meet many new people. Had time to take my mind of work. Grown closer to a bunch of people. 

This month has been a hell of a emotional ride but I’ve really learnt and experienced much. 

Love,
Jireh